Before and After Pictures

I am doing something very scary for me. I am posting my before picture and a picture of myself now. It is a good reminder to see myself back in July. It helps me to stay focused on my goals. It's not always easy to stay on track. This weekend has been really hard for me, but then I remind myself how far I have come and I get my mind back in the game. Seeing myself from last summer keeps me pushing myself toward my next goal. It's not a pretty sight!

The Tale of Two Cindy's

Sometimes I forget that I have lost 75 pounds. I sometimes revert back to the self-conscious girl I was back in July. I have moments where I think I am not worth it. Moments when I think why should I bother. It's so easy to revert back to my negative feelings and want to go ahead and eat those nachos. But then I remember how far I have come in this journey and how good it feels to be healthier and I talk myself down from those crazy thoughts. Food never made me feel better, I just thought it did.

So now I am trying to be more positive. I pulled a muscle 3 weeks ago and I have not been able to really workout on it since. I could have let it deter me from my goal. I could have decided if I couldn't workout why bother eating healthy, but I didn't. Instead, I have been very strict with my food. I have made sure to track every bite that I take and drink extra water. So far it is helping. I refuse to let this little obstacle get in my way. It hasn't been easy. It's frustrating when I can't do what I want for my workouts, I miss running! But it has helped me to realize that this is the way life is. If I am really going to keep my weight off this time I have to be prepared for whatever life throws at me. I have learned that you need to keep a positive attitude and realize that things will come up you can't change. Life is always going to be that way. So far, I think I have done alright dealing with it. That old 75 pounds heavier me can stay away! That weight is gone for good! :)

Hi, my name is Cindy and I am an addict.

Ok, I have a confession to make. I am a addict. Not drugs, not alcohol, not even food. It's clothes. I am addicted to clothes. Not even buying clothes. I am addicted to trying on clothes. Cute clothes. I love being able to try on cute,stylish clothes. I love walking into the dressing room and trying on dresses that I will never wear, but they fit! Did you hear that? They fit!!

Unless you have been plus-size, you may not understand this addiction and how exciting it is to be able to go into any store you want and try things on. Plus-size clothes to me were always so ugly, and loose. Did I mention ugly? I wouldn't even set foot inside stores like Forever 21 and Charlotte Russe for fear that they would give me that "look". The look that says "you are too fat to be shopping here". Believe me, I know most of these looks were probably in my head, but I was embarrassed to go in these stores at my size back then. BUT no more! Now my biggest problem is spending too much money!

And these little things, like my addiction, make the hard work of losing so worth it! So worth it!! :)